Is it love or is it addiction?
Posted: Thu Feb 25, 2021 12:21 am
Why do we keep coming back to trading? At least for me, I feel like I go through cycles. One cycle is full-on trading research. Then after a great run, somehow I lose interest (at my failures and lack of consistency) and it can fizzle out completely. This happened a couple years ago. I moved to a new city, got a brand new job and just dove deep into that job. I love my job.
But always in the back of my mind is trading. I started noticing these cycles, which can last months or years. I analyze these cycles of my behavior, and I can see that I'm learning a huge chunk in each one. Each cycle brings me more and more development. This current cycle has been 2 years of really no focus on trading. During that time, I've learned brand new skills. But I have always believed that trading is my destiny. I don't know how to explain that... just that as "the little guy" is means a lot to me to have this hope. I was barely scraping by there for awhile. But when I learned about the trading markets, I realized this is very powerful. And with electronic trading, now anyone can get involved. Don't have too much $$ to start with? No problem! Just open a micro account!
Knowing these cycles of my life, I've started taking advantage and steering better. For example, in that last cycle after I moved to a new city - I specifically steered my new career toward trading. I work in a technology field but I was not hired as a developer. But I started learning Python and now I've basically written a complete enterprise application. I did this super fast and I still consider myself a newb, but I feel very excited that I've confidently added this as a skill. The #1 reason I wanted to master Python is because I felt that this would be useful to me in trading automation. So that really motivated me to build awesome work projects that fill a need for my employer. I think my employer is kindof shocked that I went from 0 to the moon in less than a year. But this has given me the greatest confidence of all - I can visualize what I want and now I have confidence that I can make the computer do it. This is so powerful.
Anyway, believing in trading has given me great hope. I have seen it myself first hand ... the velocity of money flow into my account. Wow. Even though I trade very small, I understand the power here. All I have to master is consistency. Then I can honestly see how this becomes a source of income. I love my dayjob but I want the freedom to do whatever I want. So I see trading as the great equalizer... we CAN do this and many people are doing this! I don't hate my dayjob at all (I actually love it) but when I look at my life, I don't want to have it be this small. I want to travel and do great things without having to worry about money. Money is just a lubricant.
I don't think this is addiction. I just think that it could take care of me and my family for the rest of my life - so that's why I call it love. Sometimes I wonder if I'm not mature enough because it never stops being exciting to me. A lot of great traders say that it should be "boring" but I don't see it that way ever.
But always in the back of my mind is trading. I started noticing these cycles, which can last months or years. I analyze these cycles of my behavior, and I can see that I'm learning a huge chunk in each one. Each cycle brings me more and more development. This current cycle has been 2 years of really no focus on trading. During that time, I've learned brand new skills. But I have always believed that trading is my destiny. I don't know how to explain that... just that as "the little guy" is means a lot to me to have this hope. I was barely scraping by there for awhile. But when I learned about the trading markets, I realized this is very powerful. And with electronic trading, now anyone can get involved. Don't have too much $$ to start with? No problem! Just open a micro account!
Knowing these cycles of my life, I've started taking advantage and steering better. For example, in that last cycle after I moved to a new city - I specifically steered my new career toward trading. I work in a technology field but I was not hired as a developer. But I started learning Python and now I've basically written a complete enterprise application. I did this super fast and I still consider myself a newb, but I feel very excited that I've confidently added this as a skill. The #1 reason I wanted to master Python is because I felt that this would be useful to me in trading automation. So that really motivated me to build awesome work projects that fill a need for my employer. I think my employer is kindof shocked that I went from 0 to the moon in less than a year. But this has given me the greatest confidence of all - I can visualize what I want and now I have confidence that I can make the computer do it. This is so powerful.
Anyway, believing in trading has given me great hope. I have seen it myself first hand ... the velocity of money flow into my account. Wow. Even though I trade very small, I understand the power here. All I have to master is consistency. Then I can honestly see how this becomes a source of income. I love my dayjob but I want the freedom to do whatever I want. So I see trading as the great equalizer... we CAN do this and many people are doing this! I don't hate my dayjob at all (I actually love it) but when I look at my life, I don't want to have it be this small. I want to travel and do great things without having to worry about money. Money is just a lubricant.
I don't think this is addiction. I just think that it could take care of me and my family for the rest of my life - so that's why I call it love. Sometimes I wonder if I'm not mature enough because it never stops being exciting to me. A lot of great traders say that it should be "boring" but I don't see it that way ever.